I'm PREGNANT! (again)

I've been dying to write this but wanted to wait until we told all of our family and friends. We found out in late October. We bought Audrey a onesie that said, "I may be little but I'm the BIG SISTER". That's how we told our family. The weird part? No one got it! My mom saw it and read it aloud as soon as she saw Audrey and then just went about like nothing had happened. Finally we told them and asked how they didn't understand the shirt. My mom said, "Oh, well I thought it was a hand me down shirt and I didn't want to make a big deal about it." I said, "We're not so poor that we need to make Audrey wear a big sister shirt if she really isn't one." Granseur's grandmother read it aloud and didn't get it either. We have most of these reactions on film....I'll try to post them up here sometime soon.

When I first found out I was pregnant I absolutely couldn't believe it! We tried for 18 months for Audrey and with a RE the entire time! After I had her I was even told by my regular endocrinologist that my hypothyroidism had gotten worse and that he was surprised I got pregnant at all. So even though we weren't preventing anything, it was still a huge shock! I figured we would go back to the RE in March - June of 2009 and even then I thought it would take us a while. I guess not! The funniest thing to me is now some people are calling me fertile Myrtle. I NEVER would have thought that label would be put on me.

At first I was concerned about having enough time to spend with Audrey once the new baby is here and how hard it is going to be, but it did not take long at all for me to be excited. God really put a few things right in front of me to give me the right perspective. The day after I found out I went to one of my MOPS meetings and there is a lady at my table that cannot have any children at all. She adopted her beautiful little boys. I realized I should be truly grateful and just as excited about this gift God has given me...not everyone gets this chance. The day after that I went to take Audrey to a pediatrician appointment. I sat next to a cute little boy and his dad. While we were waiting I started talking to the man. It turns out that his little boy was 15 months old and his wife was going to have their next baby THAT day! Another sign that everything will be okay...other people do this, too! The day after that I went to my bible study and there is a woman in that group that also did fertility treatments to get her first child. She has been trying since her son was born and nothing yet.....the boy is now two. As if it didn't sink in enough by then and I was truly grateful and thrilled, about a week after that a woman came over to my house and we got to talking about this stuff. She has the exact same two diseases I have that make me infertile (not now though!) and her and her husband have been trying for 6 years and also seeing a fertility specialist and they have not had a child yet. Now I'm feeling really fortunate! God chose to give me this baby that he clearly has a purpose for. I am so blessed!

Then I thought about all the other great advantages even though I will be very busy! The kids will be close in age and will be able to enjoy the same outings....like Disney World. I also cut down my years of diapering. I will be doing double duty....but time wise it will be cut short than if I had another child later on.

My due date is July 4th. Ha! Independence day....kind of ironic, huh? and that's just two days after our 4th anniversary. Here we go again!